This guy gave me many memories, which is unforgettable.
I never regretted being together with him, but i regretted forgiving him.
He's a good boyfriend, but what he does always pissed me off.
He tried his best to changed to the way i wanted, he did it one time before.
Now that he changed back to his ownself, it's partly my fault.
I'm really sorry that i neglected you sometimes. ):

He's the only one who treated me the best, like nobody does it before.
He's the only one who cares about me when i'm angry or down.
He's the only one who can rush down to buy for me food when i'm hungry.
He's the only one who can tolerate all my attitudes and nonsense.
He's the only one who bused all the way down without any complains.
& many more ..

He's the only one who hurts me the most.
He's the only one make me cry the most.
He's the only one treated me like a fool.
He's the only one can dua-ed me many times.
He's the only one lied to me the most.
& many more ..

He's the one i fall in love with deeply.
He's the one which i'm thinking of every single night.
He's the only one i can wait for him till the next day.
He's the only one i took up the courage to text him/call him.
& many more ..

Everything ended ; this time is it for real ?!?!
I lied to myself, saying that i hate him when i still love him alot.
I tried to put down everything, let go of it but it's so hard.
Like what sister said, we cried not because we are sad.
We cried because we blames ourself for being so stupid. ):
I didn't blamed anyone, i blamed myself. I knew it will happen.
I didn't expect much from this relationship, i just want him to changed.

Boy, you know something when i saw the message you post on facebook.
It really make me happy, i'm really touched that you still remember me.
Happy that you still love me, miss me. I am. (;
The only wish i have now, is that i want you to change back.
I really believed that you can do it, i didn't expect anything else.
I'm sorry for everything, perhaps it's all my fault that things happen this way.
I shouldn't scold you, attitude you, violent with you, control you.
I hope you understand, it's all for your own good, not for my sake, is for your future.
I want you to stable down, find a proper job. Understand?
Don't let your mother, anyone of us to worry for you.
Yes, i once told you if *touchwood you really go in, i'll wait for you.
Every single words, i said i'll do it.

I remember every single things of us, things that you promised.
You once said you wanted to bring me to zoo, henderson waves etc.
Last year, you said you'll accompany me to countdown, christmas&newyear.
It's was my sisters, friends who accompany me, thanks to them. (:
You know something, on new year when it's 12Am, i feel like crying.
But i controlled, but in the end my tears drop. I thought you'll come ..
I didn't know it was all my wishfull thinking. ):
This year valentine's day, & my birthday guess i'm all alone again.
I don't intend to celebrate it, because it's meaningless.
I remembered last year valentine's, we went srg, cine, raffles, then jc.
I remembered last year birthday chalet 3days, you pei-ed me throughout.
I really had a meaningful valentine's & birthday last year. (;
I remember during our 1year, you brought me roses, the first guy.
Every single lil sweet things you've done really bright up my day.

I took up all my courage to text you, asking how're you etc. Hoping for your replies, & yes..
Just a few replies from you, i'm really happy with it.
I'm happy that you still remember wednesday is our day.
03th`s, our 1y5m. (: Happy 1y5m in advance, (even we already broke up.)
Nothing much i can say anymore, memories will be kept in my heart.
Don't eat too much maggie mee, takecare of yourself (L)

One last thing i'm gonna tell you is that ,
I'm happy that we once together and have many memories together.
I hope that we're still friend's.
No matter what, just a call i'll be there for you no matter how busy i'm or what.
I'll lend you my listening ears/ shoulders for you if you need it. (:

ILU :( I hoped that 2o1o valentine's and birthday you'll be here.

I'm happy that all my sisters, friends are there for me always.
(L)

& This my last post for this blog, new link will be given to dearest's.
Takecares. (: